Friends

Thank God for giving me friends to help me through the pain.
I still am missing Junior but I'm learning to be a stronger person.

I dreamed of him again last night.

My little baby

It has been exactly 1 week since Junior has been missing. Everyone has been telling me to let go or it’s too late and all that stuff. It hurts so badly. I've finished pasting and sending out 550 posters during the past week. Will be printing more later today. Hopefully someone will contact me soon.

Kor, mummy and Godash has been helping me search everyday but still no luck. I've been filling up my schedule with things to do so I don't think about Junior. Once I stop doing something, I start to remember how miserable and lost I feel without my baby.

Jun has been crying and howling every since last night. I feel her pain.

I can still remember that day when I first saw him. I was at the pet shop in KL where I bought Joey because Mummy said lets go find a playmate for Joey since he's always crying at night.

There were two black and white shih tzu looking through their glass cage. I picked one, and the shop owner trimmed his nails, feed him his vitamins and put him into my arms and as we walked off from the shop, Mum said "I think I want the naughty looking one" so we went back to the shop and exchange him for Junior.

Not only does Junior look naughty, he is terribly naughty. He came back and taught Joey how to dig out the plants, tear things apart and make a big mess. After a few days, we noticed how he had some problem breathing. It turns out that his lungs were damaged. So we brought him to the vet to undergo the surgery and brought him home after that. Thank God, Mummy chose him if not he would had just died in the pet shop. Junior stayed in the toilet connected to me and kor's room for awhile. I would always open my room toilet door and play with him and sneak him into my room.

I remember the shop owner saying that shih tzues are very quiet dogs, but that is so different from Junior. He is the nosiest dog I have ever known. He barks when he's hungry, when he's bored, when he wants some attention, when he sees something at the gate and so much more. He also scratches the door open whenever I close it.

Now there is no more scratching on the door, no more barking, no more vibrating tail for me. All there is is Jun's cries and my tears. He has the cutest tail anyone can ever imagine. It doesn't just wag; it vibrates like how your phone would when it rings.

I still leave his dinner outside the gate hoping to find him outside when I come to collect the bowl back but he isn't.

I will NEVER stop looking for Junior. As long as he is out there, I'll continue to search for him. I'll bring you home, baby.

God, please bring my baby home to be safely. I miss him so badly.

I never knew how much I loved him until now. It sucks that I play favoritism to Joey. I should had been fair to you, baby. I should had scratch your tummy a little more, I should had just hug you when you are scared instead of punishing you for making so much noise or coming into the house and pee everywhere when you were just looking for me to protect you from the loud noises.

I'm so sorry Junior. Please come home. I miss you. Mummy just wants you back.

This is all like a nightmare. I just hope I can wake up soon and see Junior once again.

I lost my baby

Junior ran out of the house last night with Jun. They usually return after an hour but this time only Jun came home.

Please help bring my baby back to me. I've search every alley, every row and passed out flyers. If you see him around, please contact me 017 314 0314.


I really miss him.






Breed: Shih Tzu
Age: 9 years old
Colour: Black and white

Last seen on 31/03/09, SS17 Subang Jaya at 11 PM.

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The End

I finished all 4 books of twilight *sigh* I wished there were more. It was so good while it lasted. Reneesme! Hehe.. I better not write so much about it although I'm dying to since there are a couple of twilight fans writing, I don't want to spoil the ending for them like a few people did to me. Morons -.- Nevertheless it was still awesome!

Kor fetched me to the vet today to check Jr's healing process. He's healing well just that I mixed up his eye drops so it didn't help his eyes much T_T



Watched "The Duchess" with mummy and Godash just now. I'm just a sucker for this olden day classics :P It's a really sad show on how much sorrow and pain a woman can take and yet be so strong.





The show reminds me of "Becoming Jane" which also left me with a bucket of tears. Oh ya, I cried like crazy also while reading the last few chapters of twilight.



Lastly, I painted my nails shimmering red. I wanted to paint them plum but I didn't have enough paint left. It still looks great :D Their's so long and shiny!!

Fear of blood

Junior:
This morning baby and I changed Jr's bandaged. Most of the dried blood made the bandage stuck to his stitches. As we were changing it (ok, fine Godash was doing everything! I just cried and whimper like Jr) there were tears in Jr's eyes. I feel so sick after seeing the stitches and blood. I couldn't even see anything when I stood up. I felt like passing out. My heart was pumping as if it were going to pop out from my body! I'm such a scardy cat! Thank God for baby for being so strong and do everything for me despite my uselessness during the proceedure!

Lessons from Lok Lok:
Last night before I went to church for youth group, I went to buy bandages with kor at the pharmacy in ss15 then kor said, since we're so early, let's eat Lok Lok! hehe yummmm.. My fav is the sawi! Dipped with peanut sauce, chilli sauce and brown sauce! We also ate grilled oyster mushrooms! Too bad the Lok Lok man con our 70 cents which made me kinda angry. But kor said nvm because he said that in the bible, Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. [Matthew 7:120]. So if I want people to give me chance in life, I should give others chances. He also asked me how far can I go with 70 cents?

Rantings:
Last night, Kor taught us during youth. He's message was Christmas. Christmas, the season of HOPE. I was talking to kor recently about how irritated I am on Christmas being so commercialised by the world. We're supposed to remember that our Savior was born on that day and NOT need to get into the Christmas mood by decorating a tree, listening to songs about reindeers, dressing up as some fat guy in red and such. I'm not saying that we shouldn't do all this, its not my part to say but I just want people to know Christmas isn't about santa claus, trees, reindeers, shopping and all. It's to remember Jesus. Men will live forever more because of Christmas day. We even saw a santa wrestler in WWE named Santa Claas -.-



After youth, Godash and I went to pick up the movie tickets for IP Man that kor had ordered online. Turns out when we were at the counter, we realised that he accidently booked for Wednesday! Haha. So we had to wait for half an hour to the ticket bookings to be realesed! We played time crisis 3 in the arcade while waiting. Despite how much I know Godash doesn't like playing it, he still played it with me :D there was really irritating girl beside me playing with her bf, house of the dead. OMG she kept screaming beside my ear and help behind her gun. If only my gun was real. Grrr... After using up all our tokens, we went get our tickets but we were a minute too early! Luckily, he counter guy was nice and he said stay with him only la and chat. He's from USJ14, just came out and all. Haha. Eventually, we got the tickets, I nice seat too! In the middle! I can't understand why people would ever want to sit by side. Anyways, Adrian and kor came after their supper and we bought drinks and chips and got into the cinema.



Ip Man is awesome! The show so nice T_T The legend played by Donnie Yen who was the sifu to Bruce Lee, was really funny and very gentlemen. I love the part where we ask the people to close the door on their way out as the house was getting crowded! Hehe. I'm proud to say I didn't cry during this movie! Although my eyes were watery a few times and I did whimper alot. The fight scenes are really good! I felt so much pain when they fought. I'm felt quite pissed of the the Japanese military attacking China. For a minute, I felt proud to be a Chinese. I was always happy when people mistake me for being Japanese but at that moment, I didn't want to have anything of me related to them. They way they were potrayed in the film. Adrian was saying, surely it was much worst then what was on screen. But I guess, all wars are like that. They eat whales too ): but Chinese eat dogs and monkeys. Ah well.

Anyways, here are my two favourite photos that was taken for Christina's eco friendly fashion photo shoot! Tata for now!





P.S. I just found out Jr's ripped off his new bandaged -.- I'm waiting for kor to come back to help me.

My sick lil baby

Junior has always been the naughtiest and nosiest baby I have but still I love him to death. He hurt his paw, has a cyst in his eye and a cut at it too. He's really mischievous. *sigh* I hope this will teach his a lesson on behaving. Breaks my heart to see him like this.

I dropped him off at the vet this morning with kor at 9.30am. I was like a paranoid mother, crying over lil Jr. Actually, he's 10 yrs old. But still my lil baby in my eyes. Went other to kor's intern office area, creative juice there to have breakfast. We ate fish paste noodles. Supposed to be fish head mee hoon. It was so yummy! Sour, chinese vine taste. At least i could stop worrying about Jr for a bit. Kor even listened to me talk about twilight non stop.

Came back home, wanted to sleep but was really just too worried to sleep and I was afraid that if i do fall asleep I wouldn't be able to wake up (was reading twilight till 4am, book 4 chap 16) pick Jr up as soon as he was out so surgery so I read twilight till the vet called me.

We reached the vet at 1pm. There was my baby lying on the vet's examination table. So sleepy like an angel. Such a rare sight! As soon as we arrived back home, I placed him down for the other two to see him, Jun licked his nose to greet him and Joey just looked at him. I could see they were very relieved to have him back but a lil worried. I'm really glad he's back home. I wanted him to wake up seeing and smelling a familar place and faces. He should be waking up later in the evening cause the vet said older dogs take longer time to wake up.

Was supposed to go fff with tracy to help out at the shelter. Shall go again another day. Sorry babe, for calling it off last minute T_T

Thank God for answering my prayer and keeping my baby safe.

A Lazy Afternoon

After church, daddy took me out for lunch at ss2 to eat really awesome a french toast then went out and buy some programs for my new lap top (see next post).

Had fun spending time with daddy. Reminded me of the good old days when I'll follow him everywhere! Will post about that another day :D So stay tuned for it!

Anyways when I came back, I groomed my babies and they were sitting in formation of a diagonal line when I was done but just when I got my camera to snap them, they moved.

So what the heck. I just snapped away! They're so lazy during the day but by night they become like sugar high doggies!

Here are the pics :D enjoy!

My little princess,








In my eyes, he'll always be my little baby boy,








My little rascal,








By our powers combined...

College Starts

Classes on Tuesday to Friday. *sigh* Had so much fun during the hols! Shopped and slept alot! Not forgetting the major highlight of the holiday, I packed up my room!! Still kinda messy but its much better. Folded all my clothes and threw away my form 3 books (ya it has been ages since I packed my room up). Feels so neat and tidy now! Really satisfed and proud of myself!

At least my classes are all in the afternoon or night so can still DOTA or watch "House"! and no more saturday morning classes!!!! *yays* Some subjects seem interesting. I had publishing class today and the project given was to revamp a whole magazine of your choice. So I'll most probably be choosing a fashion mag.

I was late for class today though. Some renovation people put their big bin in the middle of the road so I had to reverse all the way to the other end to exit. The trucker who handles it scolded me for scolding him -.- yeshhh. Said it wasn't his fault. Then whose? Mine meh? Then to top it off, there was no parking today. had to park wayyyyyy at the end to walk in the scorching humid weather of ours to class. Ran up the college stairs like a mad woman. I saw many people giving the stoned stare as I raced up. Haha. What a day. At least class ended early and camwhored with the girls for awhile before returning home.

Took my babies for their annual check up and vaccination with kor this morning. They were so hyper and I brought them one by one so when it was about Jun's turn to go in the exam room, she panicked and got up on her two feet and put the her feet on my brother's lap and looked at him then the exit then back to him, begging him to let her escape. So cute! She stared at the Vet as he took a new needle until the every end. Should hear her shiver against the metal table. Just like her owner :P the other two were fine. They're all time back to their hyper selves again in the garden. Just threw away some plants that they dug out when i was in class -.-

Mum bought me a golden hangbag for college to match my shoes and dyed my hair roots for me which I received a few compliments for them :D Have been using it for college. Big and nice for stuff in all my junk (no wonder why I hunch -.-) The dye blended in so well too! I guess those London Vida Sassoon classes paid off. haha! She buys me lots of cool stuff. You can see in the background of the photo, she bought me those headless vintage doll jewelry hanger without me even asking. I love her very much but we keep arguing even from young. Still working on that though.

I've attached two pictures below showing what my mum did to my brother's and I's stuff toy bunnies in the music/study room. evil but cute >_<