My little baby

It has been exactly 1 week since Junior has been missing. Everyone has been telling me to let go or it’s too late and all that stuff. It hurts so badly. I've finished pasting and sending out 550 posters during the past week. Will be printing more later today. Hopefully someone will contact me soon.

Kor, mummy and Godash has been helping me search everyday but still no luck. I've been filling up my schedule with things to do so I don't think about Junior. Once I stop doing something, I start to remember how miserable and lost I feel without my baby.

Jun has been crying and howling every since last night. I feel her pain.

I can still remember that day when I first saw him. I was at the pet shop in KL where I bought Joey because Mummy said lets go find a playmate for Joey since he's always crying at night.

There were two black and white shih tzu looking through their glass cage. I picked one, and the shop owner trimmed his nails, feed him his vitamins and put him into my arms and as we walked off from the shop, Mum said "I think I want the naughty looking one" so we went back to the shop and exchange him for Junior.

Not only does Junior look naughty, he is terribly naughty. He came back and taught Joey how to dig out the plants, tear things apart and make a big mess. After a few days, we noticed how he had some problem breathing. It turns out that his lungs were damaged. So we brought him to the vet to undergo the surgery and brought him home after that. Thank God, Mummy chose him if not he would had just died in the pet shop. Junior stayed in the toilet connected to me and kor's room for awhile. I would always open my room toilet door and play with him and sneak him into my room.

I remember the shop owner saying that shih tzues are very quiet dogs, but that is so different from Junior. He is the nosiest dog I have ever known. He barks when he's hungry, when he's bored, when he wants some attention, when he sees something at the gate and so much more. He also scratches the door open whenever I close it.

Now there is no more scratching on the door, no more barking, no more vibrating tail for me. All there is is Jun's cries and my tears. He has the cutest tail anyone can ever imagine. It doesn't just wag; it vibrates like how your phone would when it rings.

I still leave his dinner outside the gate hoping to find him outside when I come to collect the bowl back but he isn't.

I will NEVER stop looking for Junior. As long as he is out there, I'll continue to search for him. I'll bring you home, baby.

God, please bring my baby home to be safely. I miss him so badly.

I never knew how much I loved him until now. It sucks that I play favoritism to Joey. I should had been fair to you, baby. I should had scratch your tummy a little more, I should had just hug you when you are scared instead of punishing you for making so much noise or coming into the house and pee everywhere when you were just looking for me to protect you from the loud noises.

I'm so sorry Junior. Please come home. I miss you. Mummy just wants you back.

This is all like a nightmare. I just hope I can wake up soon and see Junior once again.